I Am Sober

It's been six years now. I still wake up fresh some mornings like, can this be real? How did this happen? It wasn't ten years ago when I slipped on the ice in a back alley. I was crossing the tracks in North Battleford, SK. I lay there on my back, staring at the night sky. There's this huge light that flashes across the sky all night there from the casino. My heart was beating hard. I continued to lay there. A couple of tears squeezed out of my eyes and coldly ran down the side of my head. I cried out, begging to die now or else be saved from this life. The casino lamps flashed around. This wasn't the first time I begged this same thing. This time, and times thereafter, I cried and I prayed.

I wasn't completely sick yet that day. I had to go quite a ways down still afterwards before the end came. But the end did come and that's why I'm writing here today. Six years ago I was sober. I was very sick though. It was years before I could boast any semblance of health. I don't really boast you know. I did nothing on my own. In fact, those years leading up to the end of my drinking career were the very proof of what I would do if left to my own devices. I made a lot of bad decisions. Some of those I live with day to day. But it's ok. I think I can live because I am sober. I believe that everything is going to work itself out. I just need to do my part. That is not pick up a drink today.

Then do the same thing tomorrow.

Thanks for reading.
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Lisa L'Heureux is the author of 7 books. Her work includes the Lisa's Sober Blog Series, This and the Man in the Moon and This One is About Domestic Violence. She lives in Alberta, Canada, with her family.

​More than six years ago, Lisa retired from practicing alcoholism.

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