#61 Thirsty Thursday

Another week past already? What have I filled my week with? A lot of work. That is what I usually do; write, create posts for social media, practice whatever I'm learning, exercise, manage my house, cook food for people, sell various items, visit and watch TV or learning videos. When I used to drink, at the end, all I did was get drunk. This is not all my life is going to be, pretty soon there will be a change in my routines, with the next project.

I shared the past two Thursdays that I have been feeling low. I still am. Yesterday, during this drive I went on, I thought the low was breaking. Instead, when I got home, I slept for an hour and a half and was so tired that I went to bed early and slept some more. I don't sleep like that all the time. I don't worry about this. I know it will pass. When I was drinking, it was much worse, waking up feeling terrible and also whatever transpired while I was drunk to top off the black mood. In fact, I am a natural pessimist, of which habit I only recently started seeing a difference in. I systematically change every negative thought into something positive. Sometimes there is nothing positive to find in a certain thought so I just get rid of that one altogether. I focus on what I can have a part in change or working on to the better.

It takes a long time for bonds to break after drinking for what seems like forever and some might never be broken. I don't give up hope. I never give up.

Thank you for reading.

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