Made It Monday

I'm in the midst of my week really. I have been sober for nearly a full year now. I don't know what to do next. I don't know how it goes. I have been eating a lot the last couple of days, three actually. I feel stumped like I just want to crawl into my bed and under my blanket and just hide. I find it difficult to get used to being around a bunch of people sober still. I want to be friends with certain people and yet I find it hard to strike up conversation. I have been self-centered for so long that I sometimes don't know how to sincerely care just yet. I am aloof at times in order to protect myself from the full range of emotions. Yes, I am sober almost a year and although I feel new at times, my sobriety is nearing 365 days! What!!!! A year? Not Lisa! No way!!! Sober??? Yeah!